Mayor’s Emanuel’s Love for JRW’s Team, Not Neighborhoods

Rahm Emanuel has repeatedly expresse his admiration for the Jackie Robinson West Little League team.

Rahm Emanuel has repeatedly expressed his admiration for the Jackie Robinson West Little League team.

Like Chicagoans across the city, Rahm Emanuel loves the plucky and gritty youngsters from the Jackie Robinson West Little League team.

He tweeted repeatedly about them.

The city hosted a watch party on the Far South Side during which he and the hundreds of others there hung on every pitch.

And, on Wednesday, he’s giving them a parade to celebrate their historic that ended with their being America’s champions.

In a statement about the parade, Emanuel said the following:

“The excitement surrounding these remarkable young people has been palpable in every neighborhood of Chicago, and their spirit, positive attitude and success on the field illustrate why they are the pride of the City. Win or lose, these 13 boys are their coaches are the true champions of Chicago and we look forward to welcoming them home with the fanfare they deserve on Wednesday.”

During their run, commentators across the country noted that the team, which is composed entirely of African-American players, hails from the city’s South and Southwest Sides.

The players live in communities like Auburn Gresham, Englewood, Morgan Park, Chatham and Washington Heights.

Many of these neighborhoods have not received the same love from Emanuel as he has heaped on the young players whose heart, skill and tenacity he has rightly praised.

Take Englewood.

I pulled seven years worth of homicide data compiled meticulously by friend and former colleague Tracy Swartz of RedEye to see how it and the city’s other communities had fared during Emanuel’s 39 months as mayor as compared with the amount of time during his predecessor Richard M. Daley’s tenure.

Not so well, as it turned out.

The neighborhood has had 79 murders under Emanuel, as compared with 58 during Daley’s final 39 months.

That’s the second-highest total in the city and a 36 percent increase under our current leader.

In Washington Heights, murders have gone up from 21 under to Daley to 25 under Emanuel, a 16 percent jump.

By contrast, the total number of murders throughout Chicago was nearly identical under Emanuel and Daley.

That means that those neighborhoods have fared worse under the JRW-loving Emanuel than Chicago’s longest-serving mayor.

After the parade, the young players from the team, like young people throughout the city, will need to go back to school.

Of course, there are fewer of them in their communities.

That’s because the mayor closed 49 schools in 2012 in the largest schools closing in American history. Some of the zip codes where the youngsters live were among the hardest hit by both the actual shuttering of the school and the build up to that final decision.

The latter is an important point.

I was working for Hoy Chicago in the spring of 2012, the time when the school board, which serves under Emanuel, was deciding the schools’ fates.

I visited parents from the William Penn Elementary School in the North Lawndale neighborhood.

The strain of the potential closure on the parents, educators and students was evident. In the end, Penn was spared, but the emotional toll it had taken was real.

In a couple of years, when they are old enough, the players from Jackie Robinson West can apply to go to high school at the Barack Obama College Preparatory High School.

The school is likely to be named after our forty-fourth president, who has deep ties to the city’s South Side.

Of course, if they are able to gain admission, something that’s happened less and less for black and Latino students during Emanuel’s tenure, they will have to travel to the North Side.

That’s because Emanuel has proposed that the new school be located near the area left vacant since the Cabrini-Green housing development was closed during Daley’s time as mayor.

It’s actions like these and others have caused many in the very neighborhoods that helped propel Emanuel to victory in 2011 to question how much he cares about them and the their communities.

I asked Emanuel about this last year during a 10-minute interview he granted Hoy Chicago.

As you can see, he responded by laughing and by talking about his actions during the teachers’ strike that shot Chicago Teachers Union head Karen Lewis to national prominence.

“I know what we have to do,” he said.

Others are not so sure.

Chicago Tribune columnist John Kass wrote recently about the “anyone but Rahm” vibe that is building in Chicago, and Lewis has all but declared her intention to take on the incumbent.

If it materializes, the contest will be an interesting one.

Lewis and Emanuel’s distaste for each other, at least in the past, has been well-chronicled.

The mayor once swore at Lewis, while she has called him a liar and a bully.

Also interesting to watch will be whether Emanuel treats his potential opponent the same way during his re-election campaign as he has many of the neighborhoods that have produced the young baseball players who stole the nation’s heart and who the mayor so openly admires.

In Champaign, Similarities and a Potential Way Forward for Ferguson

Photo courtesy of velo_city

A protester holds up a sign in Ferguson, Missouri. Photo courtesy of velo_city

Virtually unknown a little more than a week ago, Ferguson, Missouri has, in part through social media’s ability to bring light to many of the world’s dark corners, come to dominate national, and even global, attention in  the days since police officer Darren Wilson ended Michael Brown’s life by shooting him six times.

As difficult as it may be to envision now, amidst the tear gas, rubber bullets, and arresting of protesters young and old, eventually order will return to the suburban St. Louis community.

And, when that time comes, Ferguson residents could look at the actions of members of Champaign’s black community in thinking about how to enhance their power going forward.

At first glance, the connection between the city in open revolt where the National Guard has been summoned and the site of Illinois’ flagship state university seems tenuous at best.

But a deeper look reveals that the two cities share some important and distressing similarities.

Both erupted in protest after the death of an unarmed African-American teenager at the hands of a white policeman.

In Champaign, it was 15-year-old Kiwane Carrington who died after being shot in broad daylight on a Friday afternoon in October 2009.

Carrington’s death sparked a protest movement that led in early 2012 to the retirement under duress of then-Police Chief R.T. Finney.

And both cities have black communities that simmered for years about its treatment by the majority-white police force sworn to protect it before taking direct action after one of their youth was killed.

The disparate treatment is visible in numbers.

In a New York Times article, Jeff Smith, a former state senator from St. Louis and a professor at the New School, cited a recent Missouri report that found that African-Americans were about 67 percent of Ferguson residents, but 93 percent of traffic stops by police.

This pattern occurred despite the fact that white people were more likely than black people to have contraband found on them, Smith wrote.

Champaign had even greater disparities.

Black people in Champaign were 16 percent of the population in 2010, according to the U.S. Census Bureau, but accounted for at least 40 percent of all arrestees, according to an analysis we did of arrest data in 2012 when I worked at Hoy Chicago.

For some crimes, it was even higher.

Black people accounted for close to 90 percent of jaywalking arrests in Champaign as well as in neighboring Urbana, we found.  (One of the most surreal developments that has taken place since Brown’s death was Ferguson Police Chief Tom Jackson’s revelation that Wilson initially stopped the teenager for jaywalking.)

These numbers tell a potent story; the words of the residents speak even louder.

In John Oliver’s biting Last Week Tonight, Robert X, a young Ferguson resident talked about the daily, lower-level harassment he and other black people have endured from the police before Brown’s shooting. Check about 2:17 for his comments.

For his part, longtime Champaign resident Charles McClendon described the negative consequences of police aggression, discriminatory practices and profiling on community-police relations. See his statement at the 2:25 mark.

Yet members of the black community fought back not only through the gritty protests being waged by many resilient people in Ferguson, but through a way that has the potential to bring about more enduring change: they voted.

Whereas turnout in black neighborhoods in Champaign historically had been low, leaders organized a stealth voter turnout campaign that some attributed as playing a critical role in underdog independent candidate Don Gerard defeating three-time incumbent and “birther” Jerry Schweighart by a margin of several hundred votes.

One of Gerard’s first major appointments was to name Anthony Cobb, a black Champaign native, to head the police department.

Many members of the black community expressed their confidence in Cobb’s ability to improve community-police relationships.

Champaign-area activists maintained that they needed to stay active after Cobb’s appointment, and an analysis of arrests data appeared to confirm their point. Although the total number of arrests dropped during the first six months of Cobb’s tenure, the percentage of black people arrested remained essentially unchanged.

Activist Martell Miller said Monday that the community has grown disillusioned with Gerard in the years since his victory, but gave Cobb high marks for communication.

As Oliver and others have noted, the repeated communication gaffes from various levels of law enforcement and politicians have been the proverbial gasoline on the fire caused by Brown’s killing, with the latest being the dramatic understatement of the number of arrests Monday night.

It would be both naive and facile to say that better information sharing could have avoided the outrage that has been sparked and that continues to rage on Ferguson’s troubled streets.

It’s also important to be clear both about the limitations of the comparison and the extensive amount of multi-layered change needed in both communities.

Still, when the turbulence ultimately subsides, Ferguson residents can continue to strategize about the longer-term steps they and others can take to bring about the deep changes that are sorely needed to end the mistreatment and injustice they have endured for so long.

The Hidden Concerns Behind Northstar’s Firing

Northstar Lottery Group, the company Gov. Pat Quinn chose in 2010 to be the first private entity in the country to administer daily Lottery operations, has been fired.

Local media have chronicled the company’s failure to meet project revenue targets each of the past three years. (In his article about the events that led up to the “divorce”, Crain’s Chicago Business reporter Greg Hinz wrote that “the proverbial final straw may have come last spring, when reports came out that the firm was running $716 million short of its revenue target nine months into fiscal 2014.”)

But all the coverage of Northstar’s underperformance and of the increasingly insistent calls by Rep. Jack Franks, D-Marengo, to sever ties with the company have missed two aspects of the privatization process that raises unsettling questions about whether the contract should have been awarded at all.

Natalie Craig, managing editor of the Columbia Chronicle, caught the first one.

In an article posted shortly after the news broke about Northstar’s dismissal, Craig broke the news that that the Lottery Control Board, an independent advisory group, violated Illinois Lottery law each year from 2009 to 2012 by failing to hold the legally required amount of meetings.

(Full disclosure: Natalie is a student in the investigative reporting class I’ll be team-teaching this fall. Along with colleagues, I helped edit the piece.)

For those who are keeping score, that time span covers the years during the privatization process as well as the first 15 months of Northstar’s administration-a period highlighted in the following YouTube video featuring Chicago Bulls small forward Jimmy Butler.

Craig explains that the board is an advisory body composed of five members which advises the Lottery superintendent and the director of the Department of Revenue on lottery operations. It’s also responsible for advertising and promoting the Lottery.

It’s required by law to meet four times per year.

A Chronicle analysis of 10 years of board minutes revealed that it met or exceeded the number of meetings every year from 2004 to 2008.

In 2008 the group discussed the issue of privatization during one of its six meetings.

Board member Jonathan Stein said privatization would provide a short-term solution for the state’s financial problems, but would hurt the state’s financial return in 10 years, Craig wrote.
Because of this, Stein opposed the state’s moving toward privatization.

Those were the last recorded words about privatization by a body that’s designed to be the people’s voice.

In 2009, the board met three times, and only once with a quorum.

In 2010, it met just one time, early in the year, and then not again until late 2012.

“As a result, citizens did not have a critical form of legally required input on one of the most consequential decisions in lottery history,” Craig wrote.

Quinn’s office declined to respond to numerous calls from Craig about the impact of this legal violation.

Attorney General Lisa Madigan’s office was similarly silent about the consequences of the board’s failure.

But John Kindt, an emeritus professor emeritus of business administration at the University of Illinois, Urbana-Champaign, was far more forthcoming.

“The situation doesn’t pass the smell test,” he told Craig.

Another little-discussed component of the privatization process also had a questionable odor: the actions of Northstar’s parent companies GTech and Scientific Games.

The proverbial mother and father of the outfit Quinn hired and then fired are each behemoths in the global lottery industry in their own.

The companies are two of four Platinum sponsors of the World Lottery Association, a trade group that has helped boost Lottery sales across the planet from $227 billion to $284 billion in the past five years, according to the World Lottery Almanac.

In 2007, Bruce Golding of the Journal News detailed GTech’s long history of scandal around the globe around the globe.

“Bribery allegations led a co-founder to quit his job as chairman. Its lobbyists have run afoul of the law in several states, including New York,” Golding wrote. “Former government officials have received lucrative consulting contracts. And in summer 2006, an investigation in Texas found that the company, GTECH Holdings Corp., doled out tens of millions of dollars – some of which went to foreign lottery officials – to expand its business in South America, Europe and the Caribbean.”

In a similar vein, Scientific Games was linked to one of North Carolina’s biggest political scandals, involving payments to then-Lottery Commissioner Kevin Geddings.

The bigger point is that even if the companies had sterling records, a strong argument could be made that their corporate child should not receive a dime of public money.

That’s because the two companies and former arch-rivals, which control the vast majority of the instant ticket market in the United States, bonded together to bid for the contract Quinn ultimately awarded to Northstar.

In another industry, this would would be like Apple and Microsoft forming a smaller company and receiving millions and millions of public dollars.

Like Kindt said about the Lottery Control Board, it doesn’t smell right.

At all.

Hinz quoted Quinn spokesman Grant Klinzman as saying the state is finalizing a path to move on, improve profits and increase funding for education and economic development across the state.

But answering the troubling questions raised by Craig’s revelations about the Lottery Control Board and the awarding of a major public contract to the corporate child of two lottery titans should be a prerequisite before that forward movement occurs.

RIP, Jane Ganet-Sigel

This is the season of life in which we find ourselves.

The children largely grown and out of the house, not yet fully independent but well on their way.

Many, like Aidan, are legal adults who have started to shed the oppositional position in which everything we say as parents is wrong and subject to eye rolling and scornful looks.

Whereas several years ago we battled over curfews and cars, now we talk about care packages sent and received, courses taken and internships sought.

It’s calmer, less emotionally taxing and grounded in a feeling of only slightly mixed gratitude.

Our parents, on the other hand, are in the time that Dylan Thomas called “the dying of the light.”

Some, like my mother-in-law Helen said about Marty in his final days, rage against the inevitable end.

Others are more accepting.

There is no right way to go.

But fading and passing they are.

Yesterday it came to Jane Ganet-Sigel, mother of dear friend Eddie Ganet.

Jane lived a long, full, joyful and generative life.

She founded the Dance/Movement Therapy program at Columbia College, where I have just begun to teach.

A loving mother and grandmother and partner to the indomitable Mel, a sturdy nonagenerian from the West Side with a firm handshake and a grey pony tail.

Jane fought long and hard against the various ailments she suffered.

Her mind never stopped working, even if the strokes she sustained made it harder to express herself.

Dunreith and I would see Jane and Mel at Cheryl and Eddie’s house on holidays like Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur.

We’d sit in the dining room, feasting on brisket or whatever other treasures Cheryl had made, chatting about this and that, thankful to be part of the circle of birth and adopted family.

Even as her ability to speak waned, Jane always transmitted pure love with her soulful dark eyes.

Dunreith chided me the last time we saw her for knocking another guest out of the way before saying goodbye to Jane.

My wife was right, but I just wanted to show my respect and caring for this remarkable woman.

On Saturday Jane said goodbye to her son, who had given her unfailing love and care as she declined.

See you soon, Eddie said.

Maybe not, Jane answered, slyly.

The Great Lioness has taken her last breath, Eddie wrote on Facebook.

It appears that she knew.

As we advance to a certain stage in our lives, there are fewer and fewer people who treat us as their children.

For us, the generation of grandparents is largely gone.

Our parents are going.

Being around someone who related to me that way, as Jane did, always filled me with warmth and made me feel safe.

I called Mom last night while we were making dinner.

She and Jane had met one Rosh Hashanah and enjoyed each other’s company a lot.

Mom had just spoken the day before about how she and her peers are nearing death, thinking about their lives and what has mattered to them.

You are in the stage of living from your dreams and seeing what comes from that, she told me.

It was a little late last night when I called, and Mom was up and alert.

She told me about the writing she’s doing.

I shared the news about Jane and about what she had said to Eddie.

People choose the time they’re going to die, Mom said. Often doctors in hospice don’t understand that, but the pull to life becomes less and less.

I’m glad you’re still here, I told Mom.

Appreciative of Jane for all that she gave us, we are aware that we are inching into the space our grandparents and parents inhabited before us, the place of elders who have largely done what they are going to do in life and who are passing on their wisdom and ceaseless love to those who come after us.

She and they will guide us as we move, slowly but inexorably, into this new stage.

Thank you.

On Receiving and Giving, Minute by Minute

Addy Reisler Yanow, left, pictured with Judge James Moran, gave to family and friends throughout her 93 years of life.  Photo courtesy of Jennifer Moran.

Adelaide Reisler Yanow, left, pictured with Judge James Moran, gave to family and friends throughout her 93 years of life. Photo courtesy of Jennifer Moran.

I’ve written a lot the past few years about the abundance of gifts I have been privileged to receive.

Gifts large and small that arrive in ordinary and extraordinary moments.

A loving wife and a son who has grown into a man I am proud to know.

Good health.

Active parents whose desires to live a meaningful life still beats strong.

Close relations with my brothers, sister-in-law and nephew on our side of the family, and love for all of the folks on Dunreith’s side.

Work that is a source of passion and meaning, and that regularly provides opportunities for collaboration with my brother.

Financial stability.

A circle of friends.

A clearer sense of how I want to live during my time on the planet.

Extraordinary opportunities for travel.

I could go on and on, and you get the idea.

More recently, though, I’ve been reflecting on what I can give.

I’m not say this is the first time I’ve ever thought of how to help people.

Rather it’s a deepening understanding of the potential all of us have, at every moment, to contribute to others, to help bring some measure of healing or insight or strength to those with whom we are fortunate enough to spend our days.

Some opportunities are more clear than others.

Dunreith and I attended a memorial service on Monday for Adelaide Reisler Yanow, mother of our friend Wendy Yanow, who died last week at age 93. (Addie had only retired four years from her position at the federal court before her passing, and, as the cantor officiating the ceremony noticed, held as a point of pride that she had been offered another position.)

I didn’t see Addie a lot, but spent enough time around her to appreciate her indomitable spirit, her fierce and loving generosity, and her simple encouragement that has stayed with me.

Dunreith, Aidan and I moved to Evanston from Easthampton so that I could pursue my writing passion.

In 2003, I had my first byline in the Chicago Tribune’s Perspectives section.

It was a piece offering an assessment of Dr. King’s 1966 campaign in Chicago to end slum housing conditions.

The effort, King’s first in a northern city, had widely, if not unanimously, been labeled a failure.

I challenged that viewpoint and suggested that there were gains that had been achieved, even if the central objective had not been accomplished.

Addie complimented me on the article, her eyes glowing as she spoke.

It was a time when I was a bit like a foal struggling to find my writing legs.

Her words, and the knowledge that this straight-talking, lifelong Chicagoan would let me know if she had thought otherwise, bolstered me and gave me strength.

This action was typical, we heard over and over again during the service.

Addie’s grandson Max Antman, a family friend whose mother had been close with Addy for 70 years, and a former law clerk of Judge Moran, the man with whom she worked for the last 28 years of her career, all rose to paint a consistent portrait of a fun-loving, compassionate, funny, strict and incessantly giving woman who lived, as Max said, a magnificent life.

Death is a natural and inevitable partner to life, so it’s hard not to feel gratitude for a woman who was such a marvelous model and who created so many warm memories.

Those feelings were there, to be sure.

But still, no matter when it comes, the loss of a parent cuts deep.

I’ve seen this during the past four years, as Dunreith has come to terms with the death first of her father Marty in 2010, and then her mother Helen about 18 months later.

Wendy and her sisters were feeling that pain.

Dunreith and I dressed up, drove to Weinstein Funeral Home in Wilmette, joined the receiving line, hugged and shook hands and expressed condolences that we knew could not eliminate the pain.

But we also knew that our presence was a balm.

In this moment the possibility to give was readily apparent.

In others, it’s less so.

But that doesn’t make its importance any less.

Doing so effectively comes from listening and feeling where another person is, thinking about what they are dealing with in their lives, and offering what we can to help.

In some cases the gift can be a touch on the arm, an appreciative laugh, an understanding smile.

At other times, it’s words of witness and affirmation.

I’m more grateful than ever for all that I have received.

But I’m as grateful for the moment by moment opportunities to give, too.

Jon Lowenstein and his team launch the Island in South Shore

My brother and ace photographer Jon Lowenstein in action.  Working with him here in Chile was a fantastic experience.

My brother and ace photographer Jon Lowenstein in action.

It’s one thing to have a vision, but another entirely to bring it to reality.

Jon Lowenstein, my brother and an enormously talented and accomplished photographer, did that Saturday night with the launch of the Island, a place dedicated to creating dialogue about social justice through documentary photography and film.

Jon has worked and lived on Chicago’s South Side for about a decade.

His photography of the community has garnered some of American letters’ highest honors, including the prestigious Guggenheim Fellowship.

More recently, as part of that ongoing project, Jon has sought to bring a new and different arts space to Chicago’s South Side.

After hunting around for locations, he decided on an apartment in his building on South Shore Drive that had been vacant for close to a decade.

Jon gained approval from the board, and with the support of the Chicago Architecture Foundation and the Chicago Community Trust, began to move forward.

Fortunately, he had help.

Anastasia "Guru" Page working to get the Island ready to launch.

Anastasia “Guru” Page working to get the Island ready to launch.

Jon’s dedicated team of Sarah Rivers, Anastasia “Guru” Page and Natalie Perkins did what amounted to a near complete rehab in the past week. Among other things, they pulled carpet from some of the wooden floors and painted the walls a soothing and attractive white.

Natalie Perkins, part of Jon Lowenstein's team who helped prepare the vacant apartment that has become the Island.

Natalie Perkins, part of Jon Lowenstein’s team who helped prepare the vacant apartment that has become the Island.

Everything was ready for the launch.

Visitors coming off the elevators were treated to several of Jon’s large black and white prints on the wall outside of the apartment.

More work awaited inside.

The apartment is a large three-bedroom with rooms located off the lengthy, main hallway.

The dining room held more of Jon’s larger pictures, many of which were taken with his IPhone.

The wall of a side galley contained much smaller images arranged in rows.

A computer projected “Chiberia,” Jon’s recent film that British television station Channel 4 commissioned about the bitter cold in Chicago and the recent closure in his neighborhood of a Dominick’s supermarket, onto a cloth screen in the living room.

All were in black and white.

All were intimate shots of people and places in the community.

Some of the pictures were older, while others were more recent.

But all were based in a bone-deep commitment to show a wide range of aspects of the proud, wounded, challenged and resilient people and their neighborhoods.

It was a snowy evening and the driving was tricky, so the crowd gathered slowly.

But gathered it did.

Residents old and young from the building attended.

“I’m the oldest person in the building,” One sprightly woman with a cane and a kind face told me proudly. “I’m 92.”

“I’m 90,” her friend standing next to her declared, her eyes twinkling.

Friends from the community like Tenessa Moss, who has known Jon since he worked at the Paul Revere Elementary School through the Comer Science and Education Foundation in the early part of last decade.

And, of course, Jon’s photographic brothers.

People like Danny Wilcox Frazier, whom he’s known for a quarter century, drove for hours from Iowa City to attend the event.

Carlos Javier Ortiz, who’s documented the painful reality and steep costs for years, was there, too.

So were Andre J. Jackson, along with his dancing daughter Leilani, and Troy Heinzeroth.

Andre Jackson's daughter Leilani watches Jon Lowenstein's film "Chiberia" at the launch of the Island.

Andre Jackson’s daughter Leilani watches Jon Lowenstein’s film “Chiberia” at the launch of the Island.

The energy kept surging as the crowd continued to file in, imbibe the selections of wine or sangria Sarah had prepared, consume the spicy chili and soothing macaroni and cheese laid out near a vegetable plate, and soak in the pleasure of each other’s company and the glory of the new space.

Wearing an evening-style jacket, his recently-cut hair pulled back a la Steven Seagal, Jon addressed the crowd after several hours of festivities.

He thanked everyone for coming, saluted his team, friends and family and talked about coming events at the space.

A wet plate project supported by The New Yorker will be next.

The work of Danny, Carlos and our dear friend and wise soul Ava Kadishson Schieber will be displayed, too.

Hearty applause and more celebrating followed.

It’s not entirely clear what form the Island will eventually take.

Jon has talked about regularly holding salons and of bringing photographers from around the world to it.

But it is certain that many people were drawn to the site and to his vision that has begun to be realized.

Comprised of people from different backgrounds, ages, and levels of physical ability, the group demonstrated the hunger folks have for a community space committed to art and dialogue and social justice as well as the power that is unleashed when you provide just that.

Saturday was a snowy and cold evening in January.

I can’t wait to see what happens next.

On Dr. Martin Luther King’s Struggles and Strength

The arrival of the annual King holiday prompts reflection on the state of the country relative to the lofty dream he articulated first in Detroit, and then most memorably on the Washington Mall in August 1963.

But it’s also an opportunity to consider the man and how he was able to persevere in the face of the consistently vicious opposition he encountered during the final third of his life.

One part of the key may lie in a speech he gave in Mount Pisgah Missionary Baptist Church in Chicago in 1967, about a year after his campaign to bring about the “unconditional surrender” of slum housing conditions in what was then the nation’s second-largest city.

The experience he recounted happened late one night in the kitchen of his Montgomery home.

King, who had not originally sought out a church that would become the center of international activism, had emerged as a leader in the boycott sparked by seamstress, NAACP member and former Highlander Center alumnus Rosa Parks. (An interesting side note is that 15-year-old Claudette Colvin had been arrested for the same violation the year before Parks, but had not been considered a sufficiently appropriate face of the moment by the local black power structure.)

The decision came with heavy costs.

King’s house was bombed one night while he and his family were in it.

He received daily death threats for the following 13 years until his assassination in Memphis by James Earl Ray on April 4, 1968.

It was at midnight, King told the Chicago audience, when he received the call. (You can hear King start to tell the story at 18:32 on the recording.)

The message was simple and laced with a racial epithet:

We’re tired of you and what you’re doing.

Get out of town in three days, or we’ll kill you and blow up your house.

Although he had encountered many similar such threats, this one jolted King.

He could not return to sleep.

He eventually went into his kitchen for a cup of coffee to calm his nerves.

He started thinking about the theology he had studied for years, about his beautiful little girl, about his dedicated and loving wife.

Nothing worked.

King then thought of reaching out to his father, a well-respected preacher, but he was 175 miles away in Atlanta.

He even considered contacting his mother.

Then he realized he needed to pray, to call on his profound belief and to ask for help from the god in which he believed so fervently.

With the crowd clapping and calling out its approval and support, King said that he bowed down over the cup of coffee and uttered the following prayer:

“Lord, I’m down here trying to do what’s right. (Yes) I think I’m right; I think the cause that we represent is right. (Yes) But Lord, I must confess that I’m weak now; I’m faltering; I’m losing my courage. (Yes) And I can’t let the people see me like this because if they see me weak and losing my courage, they will begin to get weak.”

King’s voice rose as he told the crowd that he heard a voice telling him, “Martin Luther, (Yes) stand up for righteousness, (Yes) stand up for justice, (Yes) stand up for truth. (Yes) And lo I will be with you, (Yes) even until the end of the world.”

It rose even further as he roared his belief:

“And I’ll tell you, I’ve seen the lightning flash. I’ve heard the thunder roll. I felt sin- breakers dashing, trying to conquer my soul. But I heard the voice of Jesus saying still to fight on. He promised never to leave me, never to leave me alone. No, never alone. No, never alone. He promised never to leave me, (Never) never to leave me alone.”

Based on the strength he drew from the voice he heard, King gathered himself to continue the fight for justice and equality.

He fought from victories in Montgomery and Selma to setbacks in Albany, Georgia and here in Chicago.

He expanded his geographic focus from the southern part of the United States to the north to the entire world (The bombs dropped in Vietnam fall in American cities, he said in one address.)

Animated by his faith and the comfort he received by not being left alone, motivated by what he called the fierce urgency of now, King gathered himself and fought until he drew his final breath in Memphis.

He did so in the face of disappointment, and, as he told the church crowd, in spite of battles with discouragement:

“And I don’t mind telling you this morning that sometimes I feel discouraged. (All right) I felt discouraged in Chicago. As I move through Mississippi and Georgia and Alabama, I feel discouraged. (Yes, sir) Living every day under the threat of death, I feel discouraged sometimes. Living every day under extensive criticisms, even from Negroes, I feel discouraged sometimes. [applause] Yes, sometimes I feel discouraged and feel my work’s in vain. But then the holy spirit (Yes) revives my soul again. “There is a balm in Gilead to make the wounded whole. There is a balm in Gilead to heal the sin-sick soul.” God bless you.” [applause]

The message he delivered in our city, a place where he achieved decidedly mixed results, can help us arrive at a different understanding of the man than one often reads and hears about in history books.

That King is portrayed as a lofty dreamer, a towering giant who stands enshrined in a massive statue on the very mall where he delivered his most famous address.

But his Chicago sermon reveals an imperfect man who grappled with insecurity, yet who found through his faith, his circle of loved ones and his own inner resources, the strength and courage to continue to fight for a cause he believed in so deeply he gave his life to it.

We are grateful and better as a country for his sacrifice, and closer to him as a man for his having shared his inner struggle.